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[pancakeboy]

[Text him! Or do whatever, I'm not the police, and neither is he, thank God. Just specify if you want the more-fun-but-less-stable pre-11/20 guy or the grumpy third semester/postcanon guy. Pancake only for VRDR guys please, he's not third semester yet]

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[fogboundcrow]

"Well, eventually. I had to completely lower my walls, completely accept Yu and the others as friends and comrades, and embrace every little bit of vulnerability in my heart as a part of me, so to call it simple would be a vast understatement."

A wry, dry chuckle sneaks out of him. "It's funny. I had a much easier time here than I would have at home. There, even after they all offered words of support to me and my Shadow, it still wasn't enough. After we saved Kanji, I deliberately threw myself into the TV to force Yu and everyone else to pursue me and show me how much they cared."

...Hm, come to think of it. "Crow probably already told you this, didn't he? But perhaps that's part of the disconnect as well. When I do return home, I'll have much stronger Personas, Loki included. ...Not that I'm in any rush to leave, obviously."

[pancakeboy]

"As little as that." He flops back down, listening; if he has to embrace Ren and his pack of hangers-on, he'll never get the damned thing. Like he never mattered at all.

He glances back at Raven, considering him. "But when are you going back to? The moment you left? Or the moment you remember? That will pose your new teammates a puzzle."

[fogboundcrow]

"As I understand it, my timeline will branch regardless, so it really is just a matter of when I land in the end. I may have to ask Amamiya-kun when he was pulled from to gain a better understanding of his place in the timeline."

Granted, he doesn't even live in Inaba, but they share a world code. That's not insignificant. "I don't anticipate asking for too many of those dreams, at least. I really just wanted to gain more clarity and see everyone again, if only briefly."

He pauses. "...Relatively briefly. The discrepancy between real time and dream time is strange."

[pancakeboy]

Again, he remembers what Ren told him. "Because you have two sets of memories. One you lived, and one not."

[fogboundcrow]

"I suppose that's one way to put it." Hmm... This might be a sensitive question, all things considered. "How did it feel, memorywise, when you changed back? You retained everything you experienced here as a child, but did you have to slide everything into place, or was it simply just... there?"

[pancakeboy]

Now that's an interesting question; he almost smiles. "It's there, I suppose. But not the same as you describe. I lived both sets of experiences, just as if I'd come here at twelve, and returned. I don't have memories I never lived.

"The new set feels much more recent, though," he adds, with a bit of a growl that hums through him because fuck Jiro, "and that's for the best."

[fogboundcrow]

"I imagine if your younger counterpart returned, you wouldn't have a memory link. To be honest, I think the only reason that I still have one with Crow is because I haven't actually left yet, and thus haven't 'branched off,' as it were."

Which... well, obviously, it has its ups and downs. "I highly suspect Ren is now sharing the 'pain' of secondhand memories. The way he behaved when Amamiya-kun arrived was... odd, to say the least."

[pancakeboy]

"Yes, he is. Between you and me, you understand." Why are they keeping it secret from their younger counterparts? That has to be doomed to fail.

[fogboundcrow]

"I feel like it's a foregone conclusion. We share a world code, and he knows Crow and Ren are a couple." It... hasn't really caused problems, yet, but hm. "Thus far, I'm just trying to keep it as natural and comfortable as possible. I want to get to know him as he is now. Not who he'll be in five years."

[pancakeboy]

He stretches a little, flexing his legs. "I'm sure at this point Crow would tell you not to overthink it, and take each day as it comes. I, however, will tell you to overthink the hell out of it all. Since you will anyway."

[fogboundcrow]

"Doesn't that make Crow a hypocrite? You know he's a chronic overthinker..." Then again, he could be advising it with the full knowledge that he struggles there. Nonetheless, a tiny smirk works its way across Raven's face.