You did. And I probably would have, too, if I had nothing else to live for.
[He follows along, sighing as he steps. At least he can walk now.]
I was on the verge of giving up on, well, everyone.Years of suffering in silence. The only reason I didn't end it was because I wanted to spite the world that destroyed her. I wanted to live long enough to make Shido pay. To acknowledge what he threw away.
[He shakes his head.]
I still think about it, sometimes. Dojima-san told me once- Shido isn't my father, but a "glorified sperm donor." It's a nice thought, but whether directly or indirectly, he's still made his mark. And I'm not like my older self, who's had years to "get better," or whatever happened to make him so confident. I'm just me, but I'm trying to be a 'me' I can be happy with.
cw: light suicide mention
[He follows along, sighing as he steps. At least he can walk now.]
I was on the verge of giving up on, well, everyone. Years of suffering in silence. The only reason I didn't end it was because I wanted to spite the world that destroyed her. I wanted to live long enough to make Shido pay. To acknowledge what he threw away.
[He shakes his head.]
I still think about it, sometimes. Dojima-san told me once- Shido isn't my father, but a "glorified sperm donor." It's a nice thought, but whether directly or indirectly, he's still made his mark. And I'm not like my older self, who's had years to "get better," or whatever happened to make him so confident. I'm just me, but I'm trying to be a 'me' I can be happy with.
[...]
But that's easier said than done, isn't it?