It's another one of those things impossible to explain, that he doesn't so much think as feel, down below his diaphragm and in his toilet bowl late at night. Someone to want him around, to the exclusion of all others. Someone with whom he'll always come first. Someone who'll tell the rest of the world it can burn, as long as Akechi is his. Being around Crow and his weird harem has made it impossible to ignore—and as impossible to attain.

"Anything you did should have been for your enjoyment, not Ren's. Even I know that much." He ignores the rest of it, the bit about Crow.